.Tuesday, January 5, 2010 ' 12:38 AM Y
Title : Truth Hurts
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Reasons to why I dislike updating my blog could be :
1) I was too busy
2) No one is actually interested in the content of this site
3) No idea of what to be fill in here which can draw attention of visitors
However it is really encouraging to know someone is actually here, and say that this blog is kinda interesting!
That really does make my day.
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I had vowed my interest in joining the SPOT when I failed the interview.
I have to admit, my initial thought of joining was overwhelmed by the fact that it nature young talents. Not wanting to be left-out of the "game" I tried various ways to get in to it.
Appealed after appealed, disappointment by disappointment, I accepted the fact that I would just have to wait for the next year when they promised to give me the chance.
It is weird, when all you ever wanted seems just a few meters away and all you want to do is to run away from it rather than getting anyway nearer.
Seen a lot. More than the naive me should see.
So much more that, getting into it seems unimportant.
True that getting inside the program is worth being proud of, but getting too proud does more bad than good.
That really turn me off, in wanting to join it.
I do not think that I am better than me though, given my initial motive to count with, I am equally evil.
All of a sudden, results become my main focus, the urge to win, and the discontent even when I win, really is driving me crazy.
Sure, my results are good.
(You must take into account the amt of hours I'd put in)
Even my I get top in class, I feel bad, real bad.
People will just say I had gotten worse.
Yet if you really add in your hours of effort and my effort, you are way behind me.
Although I am not
satisfied with what I had gotten, I really hate it when
Bohan say that I am a rubbish when I lose to another guy from my class.
"You are not stupid, just that you are not smart" by
BoHan.
Truth always hurt the most.
Date : 5 Jan (Tues)
Time : 5.03 p.m
