happy;ness ♥

.Monday, March 31, 2008 ' 6:23 AM Y

I had always been dreaming, trapped, in my own world.

I locked myself in that room, trying hard to escape from the cruelty of the world, trying to lie and be innocent.
I know it is time to stop hiding however i am not courageous enough.

I am very depressed today, i wonder why.
I do not know who i am, i do not know if i am pretending to be others or if i am not.
Perhaps this is what everyone always says --- mood swing.

If i am hiding, i wish i could step out of that room.

If i am dreaming, i wish i would wake up tomorrow.

If i am afraid of the real world, i wish for courage to overcome them.

Today is an adventurous day.

I experienced all kinds of mood. Happiness, Angriness, Sadness and Madness.

If you ask me how i managed all this, i would say i do not know.
One day.
There are 24 hours, i enjoyed my time in school, being occupied and having no time to waste thinking about nonsense.

Things went wrong when i was home.
I was angry just because my sister made me wait for her.
I was crazy after that by asking lots of questions that no one, but me could have know the answer.

Later i felt that i am sad because i felt lost.
I do not know who i am.
My friend says i should just be myself.
However who am i? And who in this world is myself?

I was touched too.

Someone i always know cheer me up.
I never thought he would listen to me or have i long forgotten him?

When i lost my phone, he changes my mood from frustration to laughter by cursing that person.
He said that at least he thinks that i am the person he knew.

I like them.
I really do like them very, very much.
They are my friend that is why i like them.
Although they are weird, they are caring.
Perhaps not everyone can change my mood when i am down, all i need is someone who is willing to listen.
When i am in need, they will be there.
So how can i not like them?

Let's take a look at this flower.
We went to the national library on Saturday, 29-3-08, to study.
I took a picture of the flower near our seat.

It is beautiful.

May everyone finds their true friends in life.

♥ ♥ ♥ her story , her way , her endinq ♥ ♥ ♥

.Saturday, March 22, 2008 ' 5:18 AM Y

As everyone or just only me, know that this is not an up-to-date blog and i would not say i would try to make it one as i just cannot really take that time out.
I really do appreciate if anyone ever drop by and read my blog.

Today was a tiring day.

We went to school despite the fact that is was a Saturday.
Of course i was as bored as ever,

but i did managed a small talk with my best friend no.1!
We talked almost about nonsense however i did had fun.

The tough part is that we have to complete the project by Thursday.

I do enjoy the course, really i did.

Though most of the time i was watching my best friend talking to another guy and having fun or she would be enjoying the silent moment where she could message her darling.
Yet i do know and was aware that she cannot just stick around with me forever or the other way round- me sticking around her.
So i have to be independent. I do not know how much time we actually have but just for now, i should learn as much as i could to be alone.

Well an unimportant guy said that i always copied her, will i, one day snatched her boyfriend?
Gosh! Do you know? I felt like yelling at this idiot guy saying "Open your eyes! I did copy her but i am not going to snatch any one's boyfriend!"
Of course he was just kidding,

so i did not react the way i wished i would.

Also 2 great 'angels' quite spoiled my day.
Well there was this guy in my group who kept laughing and doing hand sign to disagrees with me because i was not in good term with the others in the project discussion.

I am not that scary, i do not think i need to be mock by him!!!
The other angel just kept following me and he always is the one who destroy my entire happy mood.
I really do feel like doing this to both of them!!!

And this!!

Ha ha. My best friend was fantastic!
She did catwalk in front of the whole class!!!

Which, certainly i did not have had that courage at the moment.

I read a book "Where rainbow end" by Cecelia Ahern

I had read 2 of her books and i loved them.
However i do not like this story.
The ending is the main reason for this decision.
Why did the leads only managed to be together after 50 years?
I do agree it was a happy ending. But it was a bad one too!

OK. i will stop here.
May everyone stays happy ^^

Before i go,

take a look at my kittie ^^

But! They are not stray cats!