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.Thursday, April 30, 2009 ' 7:21 AM Y

Date : 30-04-09
Time : 10.40

BORED!!!
LOL...
Here i am updating my blog.(?)
Sigh...
How i wish i can have more stress, though i hate them too.
Actually i cannot really understand what i want.
I want to do some work and not just stone there while others are so pack with their work. (referring to Bh, Willy)
At the same time i want to rest and be a bit like now, slacking.
My class is really a class for slackers.
I do not really like too much of slacking since i do not wish to change too much to "another person".
Yet i enjoy the times i spend with my classmates as well.
Perhaps not that much of being late together.
Pardon me for being selfish. =x

Speaking of late!!!
I am late today!
I was so afraid of being late especially today...
This scary lecture said we will not be allowed to enter the class if we came in later than 815.
I went in after that. Luckily she was not that mean today.

What else more can i share?
Talked online in class in Our Nation Our World.
Went to ICA during my break lol.
Boring...
Well i just installed Left 4 dead.
Yet i do not know how to play =P
*lousy*
Hope i will not get too addicted to games :X

Anyway i find that the things i am studying are quite cool sometimes yet it can really get boring when teacher kept saying "alien language" to us.(maybe just me)
Like ASCII etc...
Cannot really get why we need to do parity checking.

Lastly...
1000010 1011001 1000101 =D
Hope you can understand me =)

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.Tuesday, April 28, 2009 ' 11:13 PM Y

Time: 2:57
Date: 29-4-09

I am currently in the squash court.
Went for a few games earlier on but now i am "resting".
Really feel kinda down...
Be it going to school or facing the future ahead.
I am lazy in everything.
Not really that 'lazy'...
However it is like the feeling of "I DO NOT WANT TO DO THAT" as i dislike it.
So i cannot really blame it on laziness, can i?
Lessons, lessons, lessons!!!
*interrupted*
A crazy auntie kept going in and out of the squash court asking "did you book the court?"
Later she keot "dropping by" and 'remind us' that "you must leave at 230p.m"
Despite the fact of it that we had already agreed to it.
Moreover i was using the laptop inside and she just came in and say "do not play laptop here!"
Blah blah blah.
Stupid!
I am in such a damn mood now and she just kept talking non-stop!
Shut up will you?!
Stupid!
Not as if like you said that "everyone will really bring their laptop inside to play".
Not even a single plug is inside!

Now i am outside the squash court.
Talking to bh♥
Now i am feeling better =D
Anyway majority of the girls are selfish.
Sadly, i am a girl and hence no matter how i wish i am not, i will still be.

Life in school is fun. Not a little bit of stress yet.
No projects no nothing.
Perhaps just a little bit of reading to be able to catch up with the lectures.

Life is bored without you by my side.
Sayonara.

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.Wednesday, April 15, 2009 ' 12:48 AM Y

This is my classmates!
This picture is taken by the student leaders in SP when we finished drawing out our poster!
I cannot believe that i can get to know so many friends so fast!!!
I was a quiet girl and people hardly even realise my presence!
Now?!
I talk quite alot and most are so friendly =D
I know Caryl and Ram on the first day of school.
Later alot of people know my name =X
As my senoir told them...
Due to the camp, i get to know a lot of people!
It was a fun camp.
The night secenry there is so beautiful.
From far away, you can view Singapore growing like tiny stars!

Anyway, the seniors were really good to us!
The food there is like food you get in paradise if you compare it with other camps!
Well i will stop here...
I am so hungry =x
Bye...

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.Wednesday, April 8, 2009 ' 6:42 AM Y

Date : 8 April 2009
Time : 10.05 p.m

Wow!!!
I did not know that anyone would actually find what i had wrote enjoyable!
Quite happy and thank you once again for taking your time to read them.

Sigh...
Tomorrow i will be going for a 4 days 3 nights camp!
Feel quite excited however the thought of it also kind of makes me bored!
By right, i should be almost prepared and relax myself for the tough days ahead.
Yet i went to the swimming pool and played =.=
With Willy and Bh.
Well really enjoyed myself!
Yet i have not prepared anything yet!
Maybe yes, a piece of paper stating : Things to bring.
=.=
Lame huh?
Nevermind will finish packin later...

Living each days with mixed feelings.
I am happy that i am going to start school soon yet i am unhappy of it too.
Read an article about people with some mental issues.
Cannot help but suspect am i counted in as well.
There is a guy who got this mental illness.
Which you will suffer a sudden happiness and a sudden bad mood.
I feel that sometimes i can really feel unwanted and sad about each and everything in the world :S
Facing a new life ahead.
New friends, new school, new teachers and new world.
A "world" i had never explored.
With a freedom so wide that some people who are not use to it may not be able to control themselves.
A "world" i dreamed to be, a place i fear to live.
This is rather weird.
I think i am a grown up.
Yet sometimes i enjoyed people giving me stress and nagging.
One thing that is always the same and never change is people always longed to be love.

Guess i will end here today.

Anyway, i will be getting my new laptop soon!!!
T 400 Lenovo!
Ureshii neh!
Sayonara.

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. ' 6:19 AM Y

7 April 2009

Feeling really down.
Had a quarrelled with Bh since yesterday because i was late and now he is still mad at me...

Words i want to tell him but also words i do not dare to say...

Really want to talk to you.
However every word i say seems to be useless...
Having said a dozen times of sorry, i hate to make another empty promise.
Maybe...
Like your friend had said, "I'm not the type of girl you will like."
To be frank, i really do not have any confident in myself.
For fear you will say goodbye, still i cannot control my temper.
No doubt that we are true...
No doubt that i really love you.
Ha Ha...
Still...
Fears do not just go away with words nor ambiguous promises but to grow with time.
Please...
Do not say you wanna leave me.
Do not say you hate me to talk to me.
Promise you will be there and always true.
And shall i promise you with all my heart that i will love you as long as forever really exist.

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