.Monday, June 1, 2009 ' 7:40 AM Y
Sad...
I am totally sad.
I had not been posting anything in my blog since I do not see any necessarily to it. But...
Today started off bad. So bad that I woke up with my stomach killing me and wished that I was sent to the hospital.It was an omen! However I ignored the hint and my iPod that someone I love, gave to me on my birthday was gone. He must be mad, no... He is, so does he feel disappointed.Why am i so careless? Why am I such an idiot?!
Why? Why? Why?
Could time be turned back?Bh told me before that if only human could move faster than the speed of light, and then will there be a chance to turn time back.If only the iPod was what I bought for myself, then could I not feel so guilty and unhappy!
When i realised I lost it, I ran back to where I last left it to search for it. I was running mad. When I reached there, I was sad but expected, that it was gone.I went to my last classroom, and the kind staff, showed me to the room where lost and found item are. It was beside where I left my iPod. Nothing was being returned.
Chances of retrieving it are ZERO.
When i was at the office, I wanted to cry and yell “NO! Are you kidding me?!
Stop lying please!”
Joyce called and asked if I found it and if I were fine.
A-ha! I want to cry! How could I be fine?
Later when I went back to library to meet Joyce, she comforts me and says she loses lot of gift from her boyfriend too. All of them were rather expensive. Yet her boyfriend always got a new one for her. He did not blame her.
Perhaps due to the fact that her boyfriend did not scold her, it gave me the courage to tell him the truth.
I do not expect him to buy a new one for me, I just hope he would not be upset and feel disappointed by me.
At first i thought of lying him.
Thought of buying another iPod to replace the lost one.
However the meaning behind that gift would not be there anymore.
If the iPod was bought by me, i would not feel as sad and bad now.
Not that I do not feel sad and hurt.
At least i can skip the part on me, being guilty.
Dear... I know you will not be reading this, since you have no interest in reading my blog.
I am really sorry for losing it.
I do not want to at all.
I love you.
Night to everyone.
