.Friday, May 8, 2009 ' 9:30 AM Y
Time : 1.13 a.mDate : 9 May 09
Gosh...
I am broke!
Totally broke.
No cash no whatever...
Dad refused to give me money since i spend almost $10 everyday.
No blames no hate.
Just that i really do not know what to do!
How i hope that i can survive in this world without any food nor drinks!
OK, without any drink is a bit exaggerate.
Nowadays it is Bh who is always treating me food.
To be serious, i do not like that to happen.
It is not like i am dating him for the sake of money but recently it does seems like it to me.
Being really good to me, he feels sorry to see me starve.
I know perfectly that he feels bad spending his family money.
I feel bad too, be it spending his money or my parents money.
What can i say?
I am just a human but not a robot.
So maybe i could just eat one meal a day?
Take it as i am on a diet!
Cool isn't it?
I will find another solution soon.
Time flies...
Without really realising it, it had been the third week in school.
I joined a CCA of my choice - SP String Ensemble
Choice of the instrument i want to play is Violin.
Ha ha... A dream come true for me?
Since i was young, i fancied all kinds of instrument!
When i was Kinder-garden, i wanted to learn piano!
Yet Mum disagrees with that since we did not owned any piano at home.
I was sad...
I remembered that when i was in Primary 5 or 6, i saw students playing Violin on stage, it was amazing!
Went home and told my Mum how excited i was, how much i liked to join them, however Mum was against the idea of it again.
Reason is i am a flicked minded person.
Of course her doubts in me has a reason.
I wondered... Was i tricked to, or did i volunteered myself to join the Abacus class.
Mum paid over a hundred dollars and half way through, i gave up.
I am really confused now.
How i wish to learn ballet, piano, violin in the past.
Ballet is definitely a regret.
Violin, is almost coming true.
However, yesterday when i saw Bh playing violin, i was hooked.
Not too sure that if hooked is being use correctly...
But... i cannot really describe that feeling, i felt that he was amazing.
I am not suitable to play any instruments.
Yes... I do look down on myself.
I am afraid that i am too stupid so i always try to escape.
I feel the fear in me. It is telling me
"Never to try anything, unless you think you can do it".
I guess i will end here today.
Gotta get some sleep.
Night.
Suddenly feel that i am like the guy who needs "handsome suit". =S
