How about telling you, my Chinese 'O' level results?
I got a B4 and just a pass for my oral.
Just like my "brother" - Zy said, "The feelings returns."
I bet the feelings was like what Ft had said to Mr Ang "though i expected it but i am still disappointed"
I was sad because i got a pass for oral (no chance of getting A1) and also i felt as though people were sorry to have asked for my result and looked down on me.
Well anyway everyone has their person in mind. I am just a nobody.
Oh.. About the party..
How i wish i was not there.
I got this feeling, everyone was unhappy because of me and Bh being there.
I know, if i was not there ft would had enjoyed it more.
Since all those invited were friends of Ft, they are who she can joke more to.
Feelings of being extras, almost made me thought that only Bh and I were there for a lunch.
I cannot help but admit, we went for the sake of attending, just to be there, just to prove how invisible i can be.
We were simply split into 3 groups - Ft and Zy were playing DS, another 4 girls were busy mingling, chit-chatting among themselves.
It was actually expected right from the start.
Please do not scold me a fool for inviting them even if i know i would be ignored as i meant well, wishing Ft to be happy.
(It is not a secret that to Ft, Zy is more important than me. Bh knew that i would be left out hence he went to accompany me.)
Anyway to Ft i am just someone slightly closer to a friend.
Other than that i am still a nobody.
I realised that when people asked me who is going, i counted 7, i left out myself.
Today too, during recess, i counted silently to myself we need how many chairs, "4" i thought.
However is 5..
I am always left out.
^^ *smile* ^^
(Often i said that to myself when i feel sorrow in my heart)
Nothing special had happened today.
Since it had been days since i updated my blog maybe i might be forgotten again.
But everything is gonna be alright as long as i carry a smile even if how terrible i feel.
I am no one but nobody with no significant to this world, not even a single bit at all.
May everyone be happy and cheerful not like me smiling from the outside but a smile which is as true as what you feel when you like someone.(I wish from the bottom of my heart!)
